Thursday, May 24, 2012

Goodbye, my beautiful Girlie . . .

On May 5th, I had to say goodbye to my beautiful and loyal German Shepherd, Pepper.  Long time readers of the blog will recognize that name.  She was and will always be a part of our family.  While she was "my" dog, Mark loved her very much.  We truly believe that she was the first one to know he had the cancer.  She would sniff and lick the side of his face, which was very uncharacteristic for her.  When we thought about it much later, after the diagnosis, it was clear to us, she knew.
I am posting this lovely poem in her memory.  As I held her that last time, I told her that Daddy was waiting for her and that he would run and play with her like he never could here.  And, that his pocket was full of cookies for his lovely Pepper.

To my dearest family,

some things I'd like to say.
But first of all, to let you know,
that I arrived okay.

I'm writing this from the Bridge.
Here I dwell with God above.
Here there's no more tears of sadness.
Here is just eternal love.

Please do not be unhappy
just because I'm out of sight.
Remember that I am with you
every morning, noon and night.

That day I had to leave you
when my life on earth was through,
God picked me up and hugged me,
and He said, "I welcome you.

It's good to have you back again;
you were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family,
They'll be here later on."

God gave me a list of things,
that he wished for me to do.
And foremost on the list,
was to watch and care for you.

And when you lie in bed at night,
the day's chores put to flight,
God and I are closest to you . . .
in the middle of the night.

When you think of my life on earth,
and all those loving years,
because you are only human,
they are bound to bring you tears.

But do not be afraid to cry:
it does relieve the pain.
Remember there would be no flowers,
unless there was some rain.

I wish that I could tell you
all that God has planned.
If I were to tell you,
you wouldn't understand.

But one thing is for certain,
though my life on earth is o'er.
I'm closer to you now,
than I ever was before.

There are rocky roads ahead of you
and many hills to climb;
But together we can do it
by taking one day at a time.

It was always my philosophy
and I'd like it for you too;
That as you give unto the world,
the world will give to you.

If you can help somebody
who's in sorrow and pain;
Then you can say to God at night . . .
"My day was not in vain."

And now I am contented . . .
that my life was worthwhile.
Knowing as I passed along
I made somebody smile.

God says: "If you meet somebody
who is sad and feeling low;
Just lend a hand to pick him up,
as on your way you go.

When you're walking down the street
with me on your mind;
I'm walking in your footsteps
only half a step behind."

"And when it's time for you to go . . .
from that body to be free.
Remember you're not going . . .
you're coming here to me."

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Butterfly Release - 2012

Once again, it's Butterfly Release time. This year, as in all the years past, it was a beautiful, meaningful ceremony. The sky was threatening, but the sun broke through and the butterflies sparkled as they fluttered skyward. Every year so far, a butterfly has visited me - landing on my shoulder or arm. This year, I had a "visitor" on my hair. As usual, I had to encourage it to leave. I know Mark's spirit is there with me each year and I believe that the butterfly's visit is manifestation of that. I send out love to all the followers of this blog and to any visitors who stop by. Mark wanted this to be a source of inspiration to all of you and as long as I am able, I will keep this blog going, so that anyone who can use it for strength and solace will find it waiting.