I'm not too sure if anybody stops by here anymore, but I'm posting this for anyone who does and more importantly, to unburden my heart. I received word tonight that Mark's father passed away this morning. Alan Plotkin turned 93 years old last Saturday. He lived a long, full and amazing life. He was a loving husband and father to three children. He has grandchildren and great-grandchildren. Mark told me many stories of his incredible skills as a carpenter. He was a life-long Yankees fan and never missed a game. While his family will miss him so very much, I know they are all celebrating the wonderful life they shared with him for 93 years. My thoughts are with Mark's mother and siblings tonight.
This week was tremendously hard for me. Of all the holidays I won't share with my husband again, Wednesday was the day when I felt the loneliness of his being gone the most and I think it will always be the day when I miss him most. Wednesday was our 8th wedding anniversary. I married my best friend eight years ago and I am grateful for every day of those eight years. Well, lets be honest here - there were some days when I just wanted to pop him, but all in all, I wouldn't trade even those days for my considerable weight in gold. What most of you don't know is that Mark had asked me back in October if we could renew our wedding vows on our anniversary this year. He wanted to share with our friends the joy of that day eight years ago and to renew our public acclamation of affection for each other. I have solace in the knowledge that in fact, we renewed our vows every day we were together. Every night, our last words were "I love you." Yes, Mark, I will marry you again. I love you with all my heart.
My name is Mark. This is my website. That might sound selfish, but I believe I am entitled to be selfish. Brain Cancer is killing me. I have 12 to 18 months to live. I want to share my thoughts, feelings, fears and anger with you. Maybe it will be enlightening and inspiring to you. I will attempt to daily up-date my struggle, sharing the bad days and the good. If you join me on my journey, perhaps I will feel less alone and afraid as the cancer destroys more and more of me every day.
Mark's Bucket List
Mark wanted to meet Jimmy Buffet, return to Hawaii one last time and see his father once more. While these didn't happen for him, he still had hopes and dreams . . .I do. Do you?
About Mark
- Mark
- Naples, FL, United States
- Mark C. Plotkin 1/21/48 - 12/9/08 Cancer won the fight, but Mark never gave up!
Before Cancer
Here's me before.
December 7, 2008
Mark and His Brother, Jerry - Look at that Smile!
5 comments:
Rebecca,
I think about you & Mark often. I miss seeing you coming in for Mark's appt's with him. I miss his sense of humor & yelling at the landscaping/mower people out the front office door all whilest shaking his fist @ them. What a character!!! Stop in sometime I would love to see you:)
Jennifer @ Florida Cancer
Rebecca,I know when you post something and I come and read it.I'm sorry to hear that Mark's Dad passes away,but I also rejoyce that he and Mark are together with our Father in Heaven.
Rebecca, I do remember him mentioning renewing your vows and my hoping so much he would make it. Hugs. I'm so sorry for your loss of Mark's dad as well as Mark.
-Amandalynn
Hi Rebecca,
Sorry to hear of the loss of Mark's father. He shared his birthday with my daughter who turned 30 last Saturday.
Thank you for writing about your plans for renewing your vows. I'm sorry that it didn't happen and yet, my heart is warmed by the love you two share.
Hugs to you.
Tears over this post. I wish I had read it and commented sooner. I do stop by and want to read all that you have to say.
I have heard that firsts (as in holidays, birthdays, anniversaries) are harder after you lose a loved one. That almost seems to trivialize it - I think it will be hard each year but you have the grown strength over time - strength to handle the loss.
How precious that he asked you to renew your vows. Such love between the two of you.
Be blessed Rebecca.
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